Life in Bountiful

My baby is SIX!!! How did this happen??

2011-05-20T09:54:00.000-07:00

(ok as of today, the day I'm blogging, he isn't six... but on the 23rd he will be! pure insanity!)

On the 14th, we decided to have Coen's bday party! His little best friends Ethan and Liam are moving (see previous blog!) and we wanted to make sure that they could be there! Thank heavens cuz this weekend it is SOGGY WET with rain! On the 14th, it started raining and we weren't able to do the pinata but that's ok. We'll save it to do with the neighborhood kids closer to his actual bday :)

I was so glad that some family and some friends were able to make it! It was so nice to have so many kiddo's running around! And so well behaved I must say! Having so many kids under the age 6 running in and out side my house was a tad nerve wracking til I saw how awesome they all were!

We had a fun barbq afterwards. thank you to my mom for helping make the food!! Man no one makes potato salad like her :)

Mother's Day 2011

2011-05-20T09:43:00.000-07:00

This Mother's Day, there was nothing I wanted more than just spending some time with my boys at our house! So Saturday, we had brunch with my mom and brothers. I cooked, Jason cleaned! It was really nice to get to spend some time honoring my mom :) cinnamon rolls and quiche! mmmmm tasty stuff!

Saturday night, we helped Emily and Bryan move to their new house! They're officially homeowners! I'm so incredibly jealous! Their new house is so adorable and so roomy! After getting the moving van unloaded, we popped open the wine and had cafe rio and wine... may or may not have had a glass or 2 too many! Emily and I ended up a bit further than tipsy! Oh well! I'm super glad we got some much needed time with her and her family :) sadly no pics... (what on earth is Bryan going to do for mother's day next year? a house is QUITE the gift!!)

Sunday we went to Bryce's mom's house for brunch as well! It was nice to get to spend time with her and Bryce's siblings :) Coen loves getting to spend time there with his cousins! Bri and Anthony's kiddos are adorable! Got to see Seth and Chelsey for the first time since their wedding! They had a blast in San Fran for their honeymoon

Then we went HOME!! I knew the boys had presents, but I had no idea how spoiled I'd get!! Man I love these guys! They really went out of their way to make me feel special and appreciated!

Coen and his best friends!

2011-05-20T09:14:00.000-07:00

Coen's best friends are moving away to OHIO!! And with them, they're taking MY best friend! I seriously don't know what I'm gonna do without Mel just a short drive away! We don't spend tons of time together since we have our own families, but she's still my best friend and I'm going to miss her tons! And I don't know how I feel about my 3 little boyfriends growing up in another state! Her hubby is starting a residency program out there and they'll be gone for 4-5 years. LUCKILY, both of their families live out here so I know they'll be back!

Here are pics from Mel's newest baby Seth's blessing!

The boys decided to play Xbox!

Seth flipping the bird... I think he was sick of 2 people with cameras up in his face!

Liam was TICKED off that we wouldn't let him go around taking pics of the party... But even sad, man he's adorable!

Isn't he a little MAN!

Biggest brother, Ethan, daydreaming about being outside playing...

Cannot get more precious than this little man!

Bryce decided to try his hand at the Xbox!

Old Blogs!!

2011-03-01T10:56:00.000-08:00

So randomly I decided to try to log into my Myspace account (really who uses this anymore??). It's been a few years since I logged in. I found some really cute little blogs that I'd posted that I really don't want to lose... So as odd as it may be, I'm gonna post them on here along with the date they were originally posted :) I'm not going to post the blogs in their entirety because parts of them I just no longer care about nor care to remember.

Originally posted on 12/6/2007
Coen's First Surgery!!
k so lets start out with a little background info... last winter coen had 11 major ear infections in just 6 months... you do the math... many times we had one in each ear... basically he was on antibiotics all freaking winter... every 3 weeks we started a new run of antibiotics... so his dr said he needed tubes... well sadly i didn't have insurance nor did i have much money so unfortunately he wasn't able to get tubes last year... well this year he started getting sick again and yeah i wasn't very happy! so we went to an ENT and he said ASAP coen needed tubes in both ears and at the same time needed his tonsils and adenoids out... WHAT! 3 surgeries at once on a 2 year old... yeah scared the hell out of me but he told me that if we didn't do all 3 then it would be worthless because the infections were caused by a combo of all 3 issues... so we scheduled the surgery... and last week Chris took coen to his pre-opp appointment. everything looked good and we got 4 freaking prescriptions!! yesterday 12/5, i got them filled at sam's club... thank god for their cheap prescriptions... they were able to fill 3 of them for only $21!!! i was shocked! haha... at about 4 that afternoon i received a phone call saying that coen was going to be the first surgery!! we had to be there at 6AM! k we live in Riverton... the surgery is at Primary Childrens... it's a freaking 45 minute drive!! ugh... so dark and early we woke up (have to say dark because it was 4:30 and yeah the sun wasn't up yet) and got us dressed and threw ourselves in the car... got up there and got checked in... coen got to play with lots of toys... the room was PACKED! so many kids getting early morning surgery... we got him back and first found out that he's 37 pounds and exactly 3 feet tall haha... BIG KIDDO! then he got to put on some stellar yellow pjs... he was ok taking off his football pjs since the new ones were yellow; his fav color for the time being haha... then came the versaid (spelling??)... basically 10 minutes later he was just a vegetable hahaha he couldn't move but wow he laughed a lot... then the wheeled him back and we said goodbye and we were told we had 30 minutes til the surgery would be over... we raced to the cafeteria to grab food haha we were starving! then rushed back up... Bev & Ted (chris's aunt and uncle who we live with and coen's surrogate grandparents) were there waiting with us... the dr came back insanely quickly haha i figured that it would take a while... and GREAT NEWS... all went well! his tonsils were gigantic but there was no live infection and there was no fluid in his ears! all good signs... and a few minutes later i got called back to post-opp recovery... he was screaming his head off and scrambling around the bed... the nurse said he was quite upset to get laid down and all he wanted was to be cuddled. so they got me a rocking chair and i got to cuddle my baby... everytime someone would touch him he would get very upset and start crying and he HATED the IV... but that was the only 2 things he complained about. a few minutes later we got moved to the recovery room and chris got to come in. coen only wanted to be cuddled. got to watch some scooby doo also... they said as soon as he drank 4 ounces of something and they could see that he'd kept it down that he could go home... yeah he didn't like that drinking idea haha... tried apple juice, nope. tried gatorade, nope. tried a slushie, nope. so they called the dr and got approval for him to leave without drinking anything as long as we felt comfortable with that. which we did; especially cuz my mom is a nurse and we live relatively close to a hospital... so we changed him back into football pjs and came home! he's resting now watching Cars... now onto the recovery... sorry it was so long haha... but thanks for reading... :)

Originally posted on 4/17/2007
Coen Update!!

K Coen is now 23 months old..... so freaking big too. he's walking everywhere and running. he's really quick. he never shuts up either! Always babbling, so cute! he loves talking on the phone too!! his favorite things are purses and shoes... year i know what that means haha but he's adorable! he's got TONS of words now too... the big ones are water and no!! what random words!! haha

Coen and I have our own apartment and it's great! i love that coen has his own room to destroy! His room is packed with toys too. he just moved to his big boy bed, well for now it's just the mattress on the floor, but i'm going to put the frame together soon. thought I'd let him get used to not having 4 walls around him before I put him a foot off the ground. Shorter fall!! haha

My little "sister" Brit is having a baby girl in May... went to her baby shower in st george. Nessa is going to be so damn spoiled!! they got so much stuff which is fantastic. she's the most adorable pregnant chic ever!!! (besides all of my other prior pregnant friends who were at least as cute as she it!!) I love her so much

Merry Christmas!!

2011-01-06T18:27:00.000-08:00

Oh we had a wonderful Christmas! It was our first official one together as a family (ok unofficial still I guess since we're not married, but still!!!)
My mom, dad, Jason, Jacob and Jason's girlfriend Pauli came over that afternoon to exchange gifts and to have dinner! First time I've ever had Christmas at my own house and first time in forever that I haven't had to drive somewhere on Christmas day! I hung out in PJ's all day! it was wonderful!!
we actually MADE him this lego table!! I always wanted one as a kid so I knew I needed to make him one :) Bryce thought of how to do it and actually came up with the idea to do it. thank you ikea, legos, spray paint, and superglue!!

First big boy bike!! he loves it!! and Santa even got the right colors!! ;)

He was measuring the pjs to his body... his idea! it was ridiculously cute! and no he doesn't sag his pants that low so yes these fit! haha
I LOVE my family more than anyone could ever know... I just hope my 3 boys (including Bryce and the dog of course!) know how much I love them and how much they mean to me!!

Family Pictures!!

2010-12-15T10:29:00.000-08:00

Bryce's awesome sister in law, Erica, took our family pictures!! They were a birthday present from her and Bryce!! :)

I don't have all of them back from her yet but here's a sneak peak!!

k

Halloween!!

2010-12-15T10:09:00.001-08:00

Better late than never!!!

For Halloween, Bryce actually picked our costumes! Coen desperately wanted to be a police officer (and fireman, superhero, doctor, basically all things BOY!). So Bryce thought it would be funny if he and I were escaped convicts!!

We carved pumpkins at Bryce's sister Melissa's house as part of the Bertagnoli family tradition! a huge sheet of butcher paper in the driveway and about 20 kiddos going at it! It sure was a lot of fun and I love being a part of a family that does so many family things!

Bryce and I do a family night with Coen every Monday night... For Halloween, I decided that a Halloween party was in order! Complete with decor, fun foods, pumpkin carving and cookie decorating!
Taco Salads with EYES!!! EEK!!
Scariest Halloween monster of all!
Bryce's is the Owl, Coen's is a Goblin, and Mine is the Skeleton and Cat!! First pumpkins I've carved since I was a kid!!

We went trick or treating with Emily, Bryan and her kiddos after having a delish dinner at their house! I love spending time with her! It's so few and far between now that we're so far apart!

I HAD to add this one because it looks like he's in shackles breaking into our house!! it's really a dog leash!

BRYCE AND I ARE ENGAGED!!!

2010-10-19T11:10:00.001-07:00

I couldn't ask for more in a man... Bryce is amazing! I have already started planning our wedding even though it's a year or 2 in the future... :)

This was our gorgeous view at the top of the canyon in Bountiful. We could see from Centerville to Tooele and down into Salt Lake! seriously gorgeous!
I knew he was going to propose in October, but wasn't sure when. I love him so so much and I'm finally truly happy :)

Little update on life! (lots of pics!)

2010-07-16T09:48:00.000-07:00

Blogging isn't going well for me... but here's an update!

After losing my job in April, I've settled into being at home... and boy you wouldn't believe the amount of organizing and reorganizing I can do! This house is spotless! It's almost gross! haha It's greatly played into my favor though...

Coen's 5!!! YES FIVE!!!!! it's pure insanity! for his bday, Bryce and I decided that he needed his room decorated. So we went with a Pirate theme! first off I think he has the ONLY pirate room in the country (not including Pirates of the Caribbean themes... we avoided that as much as we could!) because it was nearly impossible to find pirate decor! but after a few projects that I made, an exhausting sanding and staining of his dresser, a fantastic painting idea, a few leaves and a few parrots, his room rocks!

His favorite present has to be the Lego's! and WOW he got lots! He even got the old ones from when Jason and I were kids! And he had a pirate themed party! All his friends came! Two from school, London (his future wife and our neighbor til she moved!), Brayden, and his BESTEST friend Ethan! We were so happy that so many kiddo's came!
Ethan was eating cupcakes in one bite! Who has time to slow down and take bites when there are kids to play with!! (those eyes and smile are gonna make the girls go insane! Mark and Mel are gonna have a handful of a teenager!)

As I said before... Coen's future wife, London, moved away... it was a rather sad day! They came up with a plan that she'll come visit every 10 days... I don't think this will happen though as her family moved to Washington! Glad we snapped some pics of them together before they moved though! She was adorable and they were the best neighbors!
Living room is making progress!! I'm still looking for the perfect decor though! It's hard when you're broke, not crafty at all, and picky as hell! haha the paint was my Mother's Day present from Bryce!! I was so excited! we even splurged and got the odor reducing paint! yes we fell victim to a good idea with a flashy commercial! but so far I love it!
We had a super fun trip to the Zoo! So glad that we got to go! Coen, Bryce and I had a blast! Got to see the bird show, and the exhibit this year is "Nightmares in Nature." there were vultures, bats, leaches (yuck!), spiders, mosquitoes, and even piranha!

MY BABY BROTHER GRADUATED FROM HIGH SCHOOL!!! Now that makes me feel old! Jacob graduated with the 2010 class from Taylorsville High School! Going to his graduation made me grateful for going to a small school!!! IT WAS SO FREAKING LONG!
Look at how wonderful my mom looks! no one can explain the feeling it is to still have her here with us!Ok now for a super sad update... It's too important for me to not post it though... On July 6th, my dear cousin Kathryn died in the Grand Canyon... It was so incredibly sad to get the news. She died doing two of the things she did best though, helping another person and going on an adventure in the canyon she grew up with... Going to her funeral was so emotional. WOW that girl really LIVED though! She has been to tons of other countries and on tons of adventures... She attended BYU and Dixie State AND BYU Hawaii. Plus (and this one is incredible!) she went on a 1 month 1000 mile SOLO trek across Vietnam! She did this trek on bike, motorcycle, motor boat and train... all while not knowing a single word of the language and not knowing a single person or having a single connection to a family there! INCREDIBLE! Also I never realized just how INCREDIBLY inaccurate the news can be... Her story was all over the news and none of the stories got it right! It was really hard to see her on the news and online and have the story have such incorrect and exaggerated "facts".

Just to end on a good note... I also chopped off my hair and dyed it back to burgundy red... LOVE IT!! so many people told me NOT to cut it off but wow I like this length so much better! I'd even prefer it a bit shorter! (just above my shoulders would be perfect!!)

BOUNTIFUL!!

2010-04-27T13:28:00.000-07:00

Man I'm failing at blogging lately!!!

Here's a quick update... and I'll follow up with pics at home!!!

Coen and I moved to Bountiful with my amazing boyfriend. The 3 of us are quite a team! I'm learning what it's like to live with an indoor dog... this is interesting enough!! between Coen and a dog, our hands are full!! Life couldn't be better though.

We're truely blessed at how things all just fell into place. I can honestly say I'm VERY VERY happy.

We got an amazing deal on a 2 bedroom townhome in Bountiful. It's gorgeous and I cannot wait to paint!!! I'm utterly smitten with our new home. Mostly because I am so incredibly grateful to have my own space again. Living with other people for a year really taught me to not take my own space or my own time for granted.

I'm still working at the mortgage servicing company. It's emotional work. I do enjoy it for the most part. Office politics are driving me insane, but such is life in an office. Bryce (the amazing boyfriend haha) is an electriction and is blessed with plenty of work even in this economy.

Coen starts Kindergarten in the fall! how insane is that!! well he starts if we can figure out scheduling for it! UGH!!! half day kindergarten is such a PAIN IN THE BUTT for a working mom! I'm not happy about paying for half day daycare and having it cost as much as a full day. We're hoping to find a baby sitter who will tend to him before and after school so that we don't have to shuffle our schedules at work.

My mom is doing amazing!! for those of you who don't know. she got EXTREMELY sick and nearly died in February. she was in a coma for weeks. after she woke up, it took her a while to come back to us, but she's doing better than ever. She's so grateful just to be alive and it's struck a new fire in her. I've never seen her this happy and joyful over everything. She's walking with a walker and she's still a bit shaky, but other than that she's off and running better than before :)

CHRISTMAS!!!!!

2010-01-19T20:15:00.000-08:00

Our Christmas was wonderful!! we both got very spoiled!! and in the very best of ways!! Coen and I got to spend our VERY FIRST christmas morning together just the 2 of us!! it was absolutely amazing :)

Living with Mel!!

2010-01-19T20:04:00.003-08:00

Ok I admit I've slacked off on the blogging!! sorry!! EEK... here are some pics to catch up on what we've been doing!!

Coen went to a hockey game!!
Lots of cuddles!!
playing with CHUNKY BABIES!!!
LIAM TURNED 1!!!!! (Ethan turned 3 too but i don't have any pics of that party!)

Life in a Blender...

2009-11-06T06:39:00.001-08:00

I'm not kidding that's how I feel!!! As soon as something in life slows down so I can take a deep relaxing breath, something else jumps out at me... INSANITY!

First off surgery update... I'm ok... ok I'm not... I HATE THAT I HAD THE SURGERY! but not much that I can do about it now... I'm looking for a new surgeon because this one has ZERO people skills... He had the nerve to tell me that it was the perfect surgery... THEN WHY ARE ALL THE SAME SYMPTOMS STILL HERE PLUS MORE??? I hate him... hate is a strong word and I have no problems using it in this situation... I'm still on a TON of medication (just got put back on all of it) and it makes me feel TERRIBLE! (FYI the surgery was on my intestines... I go back in January to find out if my tough ol' immune system knocked out the precancerous cells on my cervix)...

Second off... WE MOVED AGAIN!! This time in with my dear dear best friend Mel and my 2 little boyfriends...
Here's a pic of our boys together... Liam will be 1 in a few days, Ethan will be 3 in December, and my little man Coen is 4... all 3 are the best of friends (and fight like brothers!) and I am so glad they get to see more of each other! and Look at that chunky butt on the left... BIGGEST FLIRT YOU'LL EVER MEET! He's a man after my own heart... I love it!

And since I've been such a terrible blogger... Here are some pics of me and my fav little preschooler taken over the past few months...
First off at my brother's Bday... my BABY brother is freaking 17?? and Graduates in May!!!
At the children's museum... this may be a duplicate but i just love itat the Bee's Baseball game with Mel and Ethan...

and the 24th of July fireworks!! the look on his face is just adorable!and HALLOWEEN!!!!! for your info... don't move on Halloween!!! it sucks royally! and makes the thought of trick or treating just sound terrible.. no matter how excited your little man is and no matter how excited you are for him... the energy is just not gonna be there... thank heavens for TRUNK OR TREAT! Coen was Bumblebee the Transformer... and I was a Tavern Girl... (small soapbox... why are all costumes in the store WHORE'Y?? I want to be with my SON and other KIDS trick or treating and I don't find it appropriate to look like a complete tramp! I'm not even a prude and I still feel like this... ugh...)

And is this not the cutest freaking horse ever!!! Mel's family did cowboys and indians... Mark (hubby) and Ethan were cowboys, Mel was an Indian, and Liam was a horse! So freaking cute!

Random pics from this summer!!

2009-08-23T17:01:00.000-07:00

Warning this will have LOTS of pics!!!!!

First Coen's 4th Bday!! finally pics from it! we had a lot of fun playing in the backyard with friends and family...
above are Mel's boys Ethan and Liam... Below is Coen and his girlfriend McKenna...We had some play dates... having fun in Mel's new sandbox for Ethan...
Being Silly with Emme in the tub...
Went to Heather and Kris's Wedding!! It was absolutely gorgeous and had a lot of fun catching up with old friends from Piute...

Went to the fireworks at Liberty Park on the 24th with Chris and did some fireworks at Chris's house before going to the park...
Had a blast at the Discovery Gateway Children's Museum...

Loved building things with the magnetic blocks on the counter... until we saw this sign... do they not realize that kids are SHORT!! and the counters are HIGH and the bean shaped benches they have for them have WHEELS on them... not a good combo for leaning up against a counter... he just about bit the dust a few times...
After a few near death (maybe a bit of an exageration...) we went outside to see the helicopter...

and what's up next for us?? Well I'm having surgery on Sept 2 to hopefully correct some of the problems I've been having and to hopefully get me out of pain!! Then Sept 12th is Robyn's wedding at Fishlake and then Sept 18th is Moriah's wedding at Gardner Village... September will be a busy month for us depending on how surgery goes...

Bee's Baseball game...

2009-07-30T15:31:00.000-07:00

Ok i STILL don't have internet at home... so all of my pics of the past few weeks are sitting ABANDONED on my camera :(

thankfully I got these pics from Mel!! Mel and her son Ethan came with Coen and I to the Bee's baseball game on the 25th... it was fun... the boys loved parts of it... mostly the random dancing, clapping, the Bee, and the fireworks!! here are pics from our fun night...

NO CHEMO!!!!! WHOOT WHOOT...

2009-07-14T15:44:00.000-07:00

I got the results back today!! and saying no cancer is not quite true... but pretty much! i have "very mild" cancer... and apparently because i don't have a compromised immune system, my body should give the cancer the boot and it should be completely gone by January... I go back then to get it all checked again to make sure!! oh it's such a relief!!!!!

on a good note... Coen now has 3 girl friends... ages 8, 4, and 4... he's a little pimp... it's adorable how they play...

Coen-isms that i love... "butiful" aka beautiful... "gank you" aka Thank you... "shirk" and "shorks" aka shirt and shorts... and "brefisck" aka breakfast! i love it! hahaha

also Heather Jenkins is getting HITCHED this weekend!!! so excited for her wedding!!! :)

Want a photo shoot?? Want it for super inexpensive? Want it to rock?

2009-07-01T12:42:00.000-07:00

(first off how refreshing to have something so fun to blog about!!! no bad/sad/depressing news in this blog!!!)

OK!!! My friend Laura (and yes we go way back... all the way back to kiddo piles on the floor with Mickey Mouse movies and Sugar Daddy's) is a pretty spectacular photographer... not to mention mom/wife/person/etc etc... and in the graciousness of her heart she's offering a killer deal on photo sessions!!!

http://thelolaletters.blogspot.com/2009/06/through-lolas-lens.html

Here's the info from her blog!!! you should still go to her blog to find out other delightful things though!!

Here is how it’s going to work:
ONE. I charge a flat rate of $50- which includes everything...sitting fee... free editing of your top five favorite images, and all (yes, I just said all *** as in a.l.l.) of your pictures on a CD. This means that they are all yours, you can blog them, facebook them, make cute little family headers with them ... the sky's the limit. You can also take your picture CD to Walmart and have an 8x10 printed for $4.88. Can't be beat!
TWO. As mentioned above, I will edit up to five of your favorite images for free. (including changing images to black and white with pops of color, airbrushing blemishes (who doesn't love that?) ...you name it.and ...
THREE. Here's the thing. Offering to do my photography for pay makes me a little stressed. If I feel pressure, it makes me nervous, and if I feel nervous, photography stops being fun, and in order for me to want to continue doing it, I need it to be fun (like, really, really fun...) so I can't have any pressure, and in order to alleviate that pressure, I have to make the following guarantee:
If you don't love. love. love your pictures,you get your money. money. money. back. All of it. That way, I can have fun, and I won't have to stress, because if you love them, great! If you hate them, no loss! (okay, except for 1-2 hours of your admittedly precious time...which does kinda stink...but...I can't exactly give those back, and I hope that I will have at least made them very fun while you were wasting them on me!)

But wait, there’s MORE…
Q. What kind of blogger would I be if this announcement didn’t come with a give away?!
A. A really, really lame one!

So I am going to give my very first photo shoot away to one of you! It can be for anything! Pics of you and your beautiful family, a fido or spike portrait session (I’m good with dogs), artistic shots of the kiddos, a pregnancy photo shoot, engagements, pictures of food at your wedding reception (yes, I actually do that)… you name it, I’ll do it – free free free!
Entry Rules/Instructions are same old same old:Everyone is welcome to enter. Are you a stranger? Even better! Thanks for dropping in. Anonymous comments are welcome, don’t forget to put in your email address and name so you can be contacted if you win!
1. For 1 entry into the drawing, leave a comment with name and email address (I can’t tell you you’ve won if I don’t have your email, you see)
2. For 2 entries into the drawing, write a post on your blog and tell all of your friends about the giveaway with a link to the contest post http://thelolaletters.blogspot.com/2009/06/through-lolas-lens.html
3. Post a "Through Lola’s Lens Bloggy Button (copy and paste the image above) in your side column space AND link it to http://throughlolaslens.blogspot.com for 3 entries into the drawing! (This is totally the one you should do.)Be sure and tell mehow many entriesyou are qualifying for andI will verify and get them in!
I will draw the winner on Wednesday, July 8th!

and the verdict is...

2009-06-08T12:48:00.000-07:00

So I went to the dr... got good news and really sad news...

good news first... it's only a level 1 out of 5 levels... so it's not too bad... but it will only get worse... :(
bad news part 1... only way to stop it from getting worse is surgery...
bad news part 2... i'll have to get my tubes tied if i have the surgery cuz getting prego after the surgery could kill me and the baby... any time i did get prego, i'd be forced to have an abortion...

so really i have 2 choices...
1~ have the surgery now to get out of pain and never be able to have a child in the future... risk getting rejected by men cuz i can't provide them with a child of their own...
or
2~ wait it out... continue to stay in pain... do what i can to try to control it with diet (can't take any pain pills... that actually will just make everything worse... ugh)... and hope (PRAY) that i get into a good relationship that is lasting and have a child with that person to make going thru the pain worth it...

i can't even imagine making this decision... so for now i'm just not making a decision... how does someone make a decision that will affect someone who's not even in their life yet???? ugh... am i thinking to hard about this? somedays i wish i could just be selfish... but then again, i WANT to know what a happy planned pregnancy is like!

can't end on a sad note... more good news... i get to work out again!!! wahoo!! i'm hoping it helps me lose weight! but the dr said not to get my hopes up cuz my body is in survival mode so it will probably hold onto ever ounce... :(

Please Pray for me...

2009-06-04T15:39:00.000-07:00

I go to the dr tomorrow to fin out if I have to get surgery... I'm terrified...

I'm so ridiculously excited...

2009-05-27T11:02:00.000-07:00

I cannot wait to see the new Twilight Movie... New Moon... man he's beautiful... haha

Happy Bday to Coen!!!!!

2009-05-23T07:28:00.000-07:00

How on earth is my BABY turning 4 today??? seriously how on earth did that happen?? haha (also how on earth did I graduate from high school 7 years ago today?? insanity!)

because of Memorial Day Weekend, we're not having Coen's party til June 6th... But I'll get pics and tell you all about it after we have it :)

Today I'm at work... ugh... only til 11 am though! and Coen is with Chris... After he gets home, he has a huge pile of presents from me... yeah he's spoiled... nothing insane though... just some outside toys, couple books, couple movies, new clothes, and some random things he's been begging for... like a deck of playing cards? i have no idea why he wants them, but he loves "playing" apparently... ha ha

Here's a pic of the fingernail polish in the sink... yeah it was hard and dried onto the sink... took a TON of scrubbing with polish remover to get it off...

Oh the trouble my little man is in...

2009-05-20T09:40:00.001-07:00

Let's just say his little butt may NOT survive this one... I'M FURIOUS!!! (pics will come when I get internet at home...)
Lotion on the bed/floor/kid/walls/furniture...
Hot pink fingernail polish... on the floor/carpet/bathroom sink/fingers and toes/walls/mirror... mind you this was an ENTIRE bottle of hot pink fingernail polish
Liquid makeup... mirror, floor, carpet, bathroom, walls, kid, oh and don't you forget squirted all over all of my clothes in my closet...
bottles of bathroom lotions & body wash mixed together... all had to be thrown away due to no longer knowing what was in each bottle...
Poop... yes let me say it again FECES all over the toilet and tub... with fingerprints in it... the fury was boiling over at this point...
my brand new camera... got it for easter... yeah it was covered in liquid foundation... oh and the memory card... JAMMED IN BACKWARDS! had to take needlenose pliers to get it out... luckily it wasn't damaged... BUT there were plenty of pics of his escapades...
Reed Diffuser room air freshner... DUMPED IN THE LAUNDRY HAMPER ALL OVER MY CLOTHES!!!
it took 2 hours to clean up... and 5 loads of laundry... there are permanent stains on my bedding from the goop... and some clothes were just too bad to even imagine coming clean... luckily nothing too important... i still have 3 loads of laundry to do at home and i'll have to go to a laundromat to wash my blanket (yes my beloved tiger print blanket from tijuana... foundation smeared all over the bottom of it...)
he was grounded last night... after a few spanks... he ended up falling asleep during said grounding... i ended up waking him up when i saw the makeup all over my clothes in the closet... good thing cuz he hadn't eaten... so he was scolded again and sent back to bed... slept in his own bed last night... first time since we moved to Draper... only cuz he woke up in the middle of the night, i actually woke up, and reminded him that he's grounded and he went back to bed...
he was grounded when he woke up this morning too... just to reinforce that i was PISSED! and then we put down a blue tape line in our room... if he EVER crosses that line, he gets spanked and grounded... he's pleading for forgiveness... which i love cuz he's finally realized that he doesn't like it when mommy's mad at him...

Why do dr's offices get so freaking booked??? ~graphic info!~

2009-05-11T15:54:00.001-07:00

So I finally have a diagnosis... it's not a fun one that's for sure... and now I need to get into see one more dr to find out if I'll need surgery... and I've been waiting for my work schedule to come out... finally got it... I've got 2 half a days off... and can I get in on either day?? of course not, that would be just too simple!!! one of the days is in JUNE and it's already booked... I only have one thing to say about this...
UTAH WOMEN STOP HAVING SO MANY BABIES!!! I need to see my OBGYN! hahaha
I realize that prego chics need preferential treatment cuz well they're prego... BUT! I'm in a ton of pain and have been for about a year now... and now I've got a diagnosis... and I would really like to know if I need surgery!!!!! Especially cuz I've been told that time is of the essence and it will only continue to get worse until I'll have to get a FULL hysterectomy and by full, I mean FULL!! they'll sew me shut! I'll get to keep my ovaries for hormonal reasons though... graphic I know... but I'm really freaking out!
Basically Coen DESTROYED my body... they've determined that my pregnancy was to blame... I have a rectocele... google it... it's not fun...
Please pray for me... I really need to see a dr... I'm waiting for the nurse to call me back to see if they can squeeze me in...

~~~~~~UPDATE~~~~~~~~~ I have an appt on June 5th... Please pray for me... I'm really quite worried...

All moved in...

2009-05-01T09:53:00.000-07:00

By all moved in, i mean all of my stuff has been transported from Holladay to Draper... In no way is ANY of it where it SHOULD be or where it NEEDS to be... but hey... it's in the right home at least!! I love this new home more after feeling like it's mine... ah...
a few perks of the night's adventure...
~i got the help of 3 teenage boys... they worked their butts off!! it's much appreciated...
~i learned a valuable lesson about Benjamin... DO NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES PLAY TETRIS WITH THIS MAN!!!!! He can make more stuff fit into 1 van and trailer than ANYONE I KNOW!! hahahaha pulled out his tape measure and everything... freaking awesome!!
~my car spent it's first night (i've owned it for 3 years) in a GARAGE!! I'm sure it appreciated the shelter from the elements... ;)
~i thought they'd locked me out... started crying... then figured out the stupid lock... have to pull back on the door...
~i got a really awesome lime green key for the house!! I love it more than i should...
~i passed out in RECORD time... at 5 am this morning... after finishing the move ALONE and cleaning the apartment ALONE! (yeah i can't really expect someone to come help me that late but i'm still bitter... haha)
~my body doesn't appreciate waking up after just 2 hours of sleep... BUT i heard the alarm!! all 4 of them...
~Draper gets FREAKING COLD AT NIGHT!! EEK
~all of the boys learned that a job as a mover is NOT in their future... they acted like they were having a blast, but they all said they hated it... haha can't blame them since they're also moving all of their own stuff from their old house right now!!

Coen's spending the weekend with my mom and brother in an attempt to let me SLEEP and figure out where everything is going to go... right now it's in a gigantic HEAP!

thanks to chris, benjamin, christian, gabe, and joshua for helping me move!! and thanks to jodie for lending me her boys for slave labor!! haha thanks to marcus for getting me boxes... whoot whoot...
ok back to work... :(

Young Love... and the dreaded packing...

2009-04-26T19:11:00.000-07:00

Ok... i know he's only 3 (4 next month...) but Coen has found the love of his life... or so you'd think by the way they act together!!! This weekend Coen's girlfriend, McKenna had her 4th bday... yup my little man is going for the older women... Here's some pics from her party at Thanksgiving Point! Chris and I were already planning on taking Coen down there because of the New Baby Animals Bday Party... but McKenna's party just so happened to be down there too!! We were so glad that we could make it! They wouldn't stop dancing long enough to get a clear pic... but here you go! haha
In other news... Coen and I are moving this week!! I'm pretty sad to be leaving our condo... I love it! But it's WAY too expensive for just 1 income... and there's not really room to get a roommate... so... we put out the word... We got 2 offers... One to live with my best friend and Coen's best friend (Mel and Ethan) for the summer... the second was to live with a family from church... both have major positives and a very few negatives... the selling point was that we'd get to stay longer with the family from church! So we're headed for Draper on Thursday!!!!! Right now I'm in the midst of packing up the condo... it really really really sucks!!!!! As you can see (oh and this is only what needed to be stashed in the laundry room... the closets are full of boxes and totes too) we have a lot of crap!!! I've been getting rid of things over the past few weeks... thank heavens!!Here is the lovely family I'm going to be living with... Ben and Jodie... and their 5 kids... Christian, Gabe, Luke, Victoria, and Emme...

And here's their new gorgeous house!!! I'm so excited to move in!! it's in such a great area too!! and we're surrounded with other families from our church!! it's going to be such a blessing in mine and coen's lives!! I just hope they realize how grateful and appreciative we truly are :)

My Official Resignation!! ;)

2009-04-16T16:46:00.001-07:00

I am hereby officially tendering
my resignation as an adult. I have
decided I would like to accept the
responsibilities of an 8 year-old again.

I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant.

I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks.

I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them.

I want to lie under a big oak tree and
run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer's day.

I want to return to a time when life was simple; When all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care.

All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset.

I want to think the world is fair.
That everyone is honest and good.

I want to believe that anything is
possible. I want to be oblivious
to the complexities of life and be
overly excited by the little things
again.

I want to live simple again. I
don't want my day to consist of
computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more days in the month than there is money in the
bank, doctor bills, gossip, illness,
and loss of loved ones.

I want to believe in the power of
smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth,
justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind, and making angels in the snow.

So . . . here's my checkbook,
my car-keys, and my credit card bills. I am officially resigning from adulthood.

And if you want to discuss this
further, you'll have to catch me
first, cause........

. . . . . . "Tag! You're it!"

EASTER!!

2009-04-11T16:27:00.000-07:00

Ah Coen, Chris, and I had an awesome Easter today! (I'm so glad Chris and I can remain friends!!) First the boys played outside...
Then Coen got a surprise from the Easter Bunny! New movies and books!!! (I'm not a jerk... he got candy from my mom and from school... haha)Then we headed over to the Rec Center for an Easter Egg Hunt and to meet the Easter Bunny! It only lasted about 5 minutes but Coen had a blast!

Then the Rec Center opened up the pool for FREE and we went swimming for about 2 hours... holy cow that was so much fun but exhausting!! haha

New Camera = Lots of fun!!!

2009-04-08T18:59:00.000-07:00

My grandma got me and Coen a new digital camera! I honestly SQUEALED with delight when I saw it! Here's some of our fun times with it! Coen loves taking silly pics! But isn't he GORGEOUS in this first pic!!!

the BEST part about not working!!!

2009-03-26T07:24:00.000-07:00

I'm starting my new job on Monday and this past week I've been thinking about all of the awesome things Coen and I have done during the past 8 weeks together... The BEST of all was the playdates!! I LOVE THEM! He's made so many new friends! And he's gotten closer to his best friend Ethan as well! (thank heavens since we're going to be living with Mel in just 4 weeks!!)
We've gone to the Children's Museum at Gateway Mall... Taken trips to the park... Hung out with Jillian and her boys Elliott (age 4) and Sam (3 months)... Hung out with Mel and her boys Ethan (age 2) and Liam (4 months)... Hung out with my brother Jason's girlfriends son Aiden (age 2)... Hung out with the Grandma's... Gone to dinner with ladies from church... Decorated the house for Valentines Day and Today we're decorating for Easter...
He's still been in school 2 days a week just to hold his place... and so that I could get some things done like dr's appts... during this time he's made a GIRLFRIEND!!! Her name is McKenna and is freaking adorable!! They are both smitten!! It's hilarious! They are always so excited to see each other. Sit next to each other for lunch and for reading time... Play together on the playground... Man they are inseperable!! I feel so bad that he's going to a new school next week :( cuz he won't see her! BUT!! luckily I just so happen to be friends with her mom, Pam! So we'll just have to get playdates fixed up for weekends! McKenna is dying to fix him "dinner" in her new kitchen from Santa... haha

It's moving along...

2009-03-23T16:42:00.000-07:00

Ok another short and not so sweet post...

We filed the papers today... Divorce will be finalized in June... We're considering ourselves divorced now though. He moved out this weekend. Coen is mad at him and wants him to bring his stuff back. Doesn't like that the apartment looks so different... But he's handling it much better than expected!!

Deleted Blog..

2009-03-17T16:10:00.001-07:00

ok i'm really quite sad... for some reason my old blog was deleted!! i've sent a message to google to see if they can restore it... cross your fingers!!